12.31.2009

Vicissitude.

How do you tell the sheep
that their wool needs to be shaved
except for a small tuft on their tails.
The sheepdog does bark,
and the Shepard shouts commands
But the ones with the wool over their ears
will hear whispers.

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I crafted for myself one the the finest cabinets from the wood of a Tropical Rain forest tree.
Each corner was sanded down to the smooth and enriched with 3 layers of a lacquer.
I used a brush with one bristle to emphasize my passion for the cabinetry and with a lick of wax, she shined with even more elegance.
Folded neatly in each of the 4 drawers were my personal belongings disorderly and unorganized, messy and wrinkled because to me it never matter what was on the inside, but how I wore it.
I crafted for myself one of the finest cabinets from the wood of a beautiful Tropical Rain forest tree and carved my initials inside the shape of a key.
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12.29.2009

Niketalk Truth.

On the subject of poor customer service at Supreme L.A. :

"Man now I REALLY wanna go to Supreme LA. If they on that snooty Shit and don't even acknowledge me, let's see if they pay me attention when I walk out with a grip of their clothes."



hahahahaa!

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12.28.2009

Ready To Die.


Ready to die is one of my favorite albums.
Not just from hip-hop but of music period. It's a classic to me because there are no "skipables" and every song provokes many legitimate emotions. Biggie put the raw feelings that we all feel into true lyrics. Many artists today just get on the mic and spit some lyrics that will either a) get the club jumping, b) sound like a phenomenal simile/metaphor, or c) glamorize the amount of money they make. Where's the story? Where's the content? What happened to the truth? Nobody is making "Juicy" or "Brenda Had A Baby" these days.

And there was a huge shift from Big's "Ready To Die" to "Life After Death". He wasn't on the same shit like Jay-Z has been for 10 albums. "Ready To Die" explains why it was rough, what he did to survive, his state of mind and the stress. "Life After Death" explains how he finally made it out alive, his new perspective on life and how he treasures it.

The first track is an intro that visualizes Big's life starting from when his mother struggled to raise him by herself to big robbing a train and eventually leaving prison. "I'm trying to get paid"

I always thought about the meaning behind the title 'Ready To Die'. I've interpreted it a few different ways. One might spend an entire lifetime trying their hardest to get to a certain point, to "make it" or to "get on" and when they finally do reach that point, they're ready to die because there is no higher point. This is the climax. This album also includes Homicidal narratives so another interpretation maybe for a victim to be ready to die. In a diffferent perspective, this album contains Suicidal narratives so Big might be talking about killing himself perhaps in more ways than one. There's a point in a artists life where they exert soo much energy into a masterpiece that it literally drains and exhausts them.

Or this is real suicide note, where Big really feels the raw emotion to be dead. Perhaps he felt he did not fit into this world, or the world did not fit with him. It's impossible to restart on life, Biggie fucked everything up early on and saw no way out but death. "All my life I been considered as the worst. Lyin' to my mother, even stealin' out her purse" "My life is played out like a jheri curl, I'm ready to die"

And the last way I can interpret Ready To Die- Big lived one life and had one personality up until he finally started getting in the booth with Diddy and started forming a new life. Everything was changing. Life was changing. "Now I'm in the limelight 'cause I rhyme tight. Time to get paid, blow up like the World Trade" The Christopher Wallace that once was, was forming into a newer character, shed from his very own history.

Big was only 21 when he recorded Ready To Die. What does it take to contemplate death at such a young age? But this is what you get when you are hungry and you actually live this. To many listeners such as myself, these words appeal to me as...something hardcore with dark context. But to the artist, it was real life. And it was daily. As a young writer, I find it difficult to please the reader and incorporate a true deeper meaning so I'll often leave one or the other out. Biggie made it possible to create a masterpiece suitable for kickin' back and bumpin' or to find a poetical truth in the context.

12.23.2009

Reggie, Jay-Z, Tupac and Biggie, Andre from Outkast, Jada, Kurupt, Nas and then Me.

" 'Cause sometimes you feel tired,
feel weak, and when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up.
But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength
and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up
and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face and collapse..."

Spicuous.

Hit up my man Jay's clothing line, Spicuous. Creativity recognize creativity.
Eat Or Be Eaten.

12.18.2009

The Ugliest.


Today I encountered an older woman who could only leave her house if she was accompanied because "the world is an ugly place".

At first I thought this lady was exaggerating but I started thinking about it more. I can see where she's coming from. Damn near every corner of Los Angeles is grimey and cold and the streets aren't for the weak. Not everybody can walk around with their chest out so the ones who can't must walk every block with a hint of raw fear.

When you wake up in the morning, do you think?
Do you acknowledge the new day and do you know what a NEW day means? It's like-a new day is another paragraph in the novel of your life. The next 24 hours is a chance to back up your thesis statement. The Reader wants to know if the Protagonist is going to maintain or even develop new morals and beliefs.

There's an incredible difference in LIVING A LIFE and LIVING YOUR LIFE.
I do not like publicizing my thoughts on life because they are MY personal grand opinions but, check it... I've always butted heads with my supervisors and managers because I've always liked to do things differently but still get the same results. Why follow the black and white to get black when you can use every single color and get the same result?! You know what I mean?
Not everybody needs to follow the A to B, B to C, C to D method to establish a good life. It's more about how you handle each "letter", in this example, and where it takes you and how far it takes you.

At the moment that you are reading this, YOU are the oldest that you have ever been and the youngest you'll ever be. At this moment, everything you do will have a greatest affect on anything you can develop/establish for yourself later in life.

Every new day should be a new sentence in the current paragraph of your novel. And fuck it, even the greatest of writers Re-write bronze sentences to make them golden. The pencil is what you see in the mirror.

So to be afraid of what roams in the streets is to be afraid of what is in you. Complete yourself before someone/something completes it for you.

12.14.2009

Em X Mos X Thought

I Want KAWS


To do the cover art on the book I publish.

12.09.2009

"Men Lie, Women Lie. Numbers Don't."

Top 10 Selling Artist Of This Decade:

1. Eminem 32.2
2. The Beatles 30
3. Tim McGraw 24.6
4. Toby Keith 24.4
5. Britney Spears 22.9
6. Kenny Chesney 22
7. Linkin Park 21.4
8. Nelly 21.2
9. Creed 20.5
10. Jay-Z 20.3


Top 10 selling albums in Millions:

1.The Beatles, 1 11.5
2.’N Sync, No Strings Attached 11.1
3.Norah Jones, Come Away With Me 10.5
4.Eminem, The Marshall Mathers LP 10.2
5.Eminem, The Eminem Show 9.8
6.Usher, Confessions 9.7
7.Linkin Park, Hybrid Theory 9.7
8.Creed, Human Clay 9.5
9.Britney Spears, Oops…I Did It Again 9.2
10.Nelly, Country Grammar 8.5

12.08.2009

X.

"I for one believe that if you give people a thorough understanding of what confronts them and the basic causes that produce it, they'll create their own program, and when the people create a program, you get action."


12.07.2009

Simpsons.

Chief Wiggum: Uh, no, you got the wrong number. This is 9-1…2.

What I Consider Genius.

The Love Below- Andre 3000

In my opinion, Hip Hop is not about image and "peacocking" and overexagerating lyrics to show off material things. When the Sugar Hill Gang first came out, the sound of what they were doing was FUNKY. It sounded different than anything else out at that time. They used unusual instrument combinations and a light hearted flow. That's what started Hip Hop and that's what Hip hop still is to me. An artist who can conceive a unique sound and combine it with poetic lyrics sounding like nothing else out there.


"The circumcision has already begun

Desensitizing the very thing or thang that brought
you into this motherfucker in the first place.
And when I say "motherfucker" I do mean "motherfucker"
Because Mother Earth is dying and we continue to fuck her to death.
Play with your own score sheet, become the master of your own bation
And yes, God is watching you, but no need to be embarrassed
For the future is in your hands, no the future is in your hand
Play with your own score sheet"

Mains-
She Lives In My Lap
She's Alive
Spread
Dracula's Wedding
Prototype
Pink And Blue



"In a Claire Huxtable type way..."

Shady.


When something is on it's own level, it is then impossible to compare it to anything else.

12.06.2009

Niketalk Truth.

"Women tend to be cold hearted, [they take] hot showers in an attempt to balance themselves out."

I Can Dig It.

"Discovered."

Can I hide from this world
Like a diamond rock blurred somewhere in the dirt
Or other precious jewels still unknown and unheard,
Unstirred until "discovered" was the word.
These thoughts seek the darkness
And she provides support for them, a colorless harness in her ways.
And my days remain filled with the colors of the night.
Dark greens, dark blues and dark reds
And the stars provide their hues of soft yellows
To imitate the Radiance thats at her best at noon.
But my deep sky has been caressing a maroon moon
With an orange shine that bleeds onto the stone roads of my Stone City sitting alone
Like a complex thought...
Like a beautiful soul that fought her heart
Until she was pushed over the edge of a cliff...
Well to say I saw her silently slip down to the barren bay made me believe that even the most radiant stars tend to fall
And fall to a deceiving depth, deep down into the darkness.

-I wrote this my Senior year, 2008. Around that time, I liked to link the ends of each piece to the beginning but not make it so obvious. Then I started practicing and focusing on Alliteration and hiding the meaning all together. I learned to use metaphors to show metaphors. Then I learned to use metaphors to show metaphors hidden by other metaphors. Of course I'm the only one who can decipher everything I write, and I like it that way, but it made writing poetry A LOT more difficult. That's what I love. I've grown to hate END RHYME and SIMILIES and DRAMATIC LINES. Anybody can do that and to me, that's what takes away from poetry.

More poetry sooon.

Revolution Of Values.

"A true revolution of values will soon cause us to question the fairness and justice of many of our past and present policies. On the one hand we are called to play the good Samaritan on life's roadside; but that will be only an initial act. One day we must come to see that the whole Jericho road must be transformed so that men and women will not be constantly beaten and robbed as they make their journey on life's highway. True compassion is more than flinging a coin to a beggar; it is not haphazard and superficial. It comes to see that an edifice which produces beggars needs restructuring. A true revolution of values will soon look uneasily on the glaring contrast of poverty and wealth. With righteous indignation, it will look across the seas and see individual capitalists of the West investing huge sums of money in Asia, Africa and South America, only to take the profits out with no concern for the social betterment of the countries, and say: "This is not just.' It will look at our alliance with the landed gentry of Latin America and say: "This is not just.' The Western arrogance of feeling that it has everything to teach others and nothing to learn from them is not just,"...
-MLK-1967,
at Manhattan's Riverside Church.

12.05.2009

The Art of War.

I will soon conquer my pops on the chess board.
Every move he makes, he stops the game and tells me a lesson about how that move relates to life. The moves I was making, he pointed out were mistakes that you can easily make. He then tells me to Undo that move and choose another. Something I can never do in real life.

I was sooooo close to winning! I had his queen cornered with 3 valuable pieces. He advanced his pawns. I kept getting closer to his Queen. I thought I had her, which would lead to me winning the game. His pawn advanced and eventually became a Queen, putting my King in Checkmate. I thought I had the Queen but I lost sight of my other valuable pieces. If you know me well, you would understand the IRONY in this.

Grizz.

I don't get excited about the Lakers until Kobe starts making this face.

Bait.